Only tiredness can explain my current feelings.

Aik, such a short yet long day, or long yet short day. Whateva.

It has been idk how long since i post. Normally i'll post when i really had fucking many things t split out. Unless i'm really dead tired.

I'm picking up the habit of sleeping late recently, who can help me for goodness sake.
Exam's coming and what the fuck am i doing. Getting addicted w some online game at the wrong moment? Great.

Hahs, i'm once again the choosen one, together with marissa. We were actually not the students who are going to laos, but the teachers had to drop out 12 of them, so both of us were asked by the teachers t join again. ^^ , dua pai hor.

Woke at 9 and morning call tt tongpig. He still ask me if his voice got sound deeper anot. (Y)
Reach school exactly at 10. Damn pissed while walking, the road was damn muddy and it makes my shoe dirty. However it somehow reminds me of 'pao ba hai zi'. LOL. Well it was a very old movie.

We were informed about laos thingy, filled in our particulars and they're goin t buy the tickets soon. However its still not the comfirmed list. wtf is this. Imagine if im not picked, i'll had t start all over from ZERO, again. WAit but before that i somehow feels that i will hav the opportunity nah. HOPE so. haha~

Went t mac aft sch w marissa. Ate while waiting for cow. The three of us were suppose t be studying, however marissa left cos her parents were picking her up t somewhr else, and this lead t me and cow's motivation gone. Since we alr had no mood t study, we headed t cow's hse and watch paranormal activity. Damn boring, and some part was funny i swear. Stupid cow keep hug me.

Went home ard 6+. Was crazily singing in my room and blasting the music that i didn't realise my mother was actually in front of me shouting t me. oh gosh = =. Besides i was singing like killing pigs. =3=

Bathed, ate dinner, tv, com(Y). Then bloggeh, you should know what i'll do next. Being a no-life gamer yeah. was playin w xm until smth cropped up. Marcus came into my rm and told t me look at msn, den he left. I don't get it he's being hot and cold and always at the wrong timing. He was like 'busy uh, playin w ur master uh nvm dun disturb u' and blablabla. I don't get it. CAn't you just get straight to the point and tell me what you want. Besides even if u said it, you still told me the wrong thing. You liked me and i really cant believe it like seriously cause u've just known me for a few days and i can't accept you.I hope you'll understand why but i doubt you'll get t see what i've typed here. Forget it, so since i'm off t msn, ppl started talkin t me and i cant just leave. I manage t handle the others easily but i've forgotten abt jenson's chalet.

So jes was like , pissed i guess. So i'll have t do things fast. I texted jenson,rachel and dongwei & randy called me. LOL nice. So we started off as chatting and totally forget about the important points. They were like fucking noisy over there while im having headaches. So i've decided to hang up and tell me t text me the address. BLABLABLA things happen and almost quarrelled w everyone but i managed t control. Phew.

Well . Headed off t audi after that. Ops and anw i am suppose t be offline. he say he wun tok t me if i dun wan slp leyyy. SHALL SEE. haha. Cos im feelin giddy. i swear.
Anyway. By the time i went in xm's gone. Sry i shld hav tell u earlier that he's drinking and don't msg him first. Bud i guess i'm too late cos u're alr gettin all worried.

So overall today was a sucky day, quite. I'm sad that i can't stay overnight at cow's. :(
OHYE and b4 tt, whn i entered audi aft i finished handling my problems, SIA invited me to her LP~ I would always love t join idk why. Generously donated the most ex dens w/o hesistating cos she had once been a gd help t me ley. XD & oh my god i think i know her thru leon deh.
They were funny and therefore i guess my day ended quite peacefull yeah. I'm slping earlier today, finally had the sleeping mood but it's bcos im feelin unwell and now i've t thinking what can i do tml alr.



I should really start t borrow books, do more revision papers. Instead of sayin 'i will study', why not say things that you'll need t do, and strike it out whn u've done it? Teehee.
Random much yeah. Cos i tink i'll do it like tml.

Sososo. Tml's schedule: - Library perhaps
- Shopping at tm/t1/cs
- Jenson's chalet
- >>>????<<< :D

Alright, lili's going to bed now. Honestly speaking i dun look like but im worrying inside. seriously. im afraid he'll do reckless things. And hw can he say tt to her. sighed. Though we're competitors but wad ur're doing t her is overboard. Sighed sighed. Sighing makes one t shorten their life. So i shld sigh more. HAh jus kidding .

Nite.

Dear kami sama,
I'm afraid that my feelings will grow deeper as time grows.
I have no idea things are going for the better or worse, but i just know that i want him.
Everytime i listens to his voice, it just simply gives me a comfortable feeling and i wanted to be with him. He is not like what he seems to be. Even if we can't be couple, i would still like to try and help him. Yes he really sucks, but who's perfect, you tell me?

Sorry i don't dare to face you because i've broken my promise.
What i've said to you are nothing but lies and i'm sure you'll be disappointed if you saw what i'm doing and what HE's doing.
Sorry but really, i still don't have enough cruelty to finish it off with my own hands. If it was that easy, I must have been lying to myself. I wanted to be myself and not controlling. I know what i'm doing and i will face the consequences if anything happens. I don't expect forgiveness but please understand. Sorry, jes. Don't worry i still love ya. Laughs.

K i'm really tired now. Nights bloogeh night world. CHU. =3=