Sup.

Sashibudidesu.

It has been N years since i've blogged, and i have no idea when will this blog last. Maybe forever, maybe awhile, i don't know. ^^
Anyway this will be a very private blog that only I myself can read it, so i guess i could rant almost everything here. I will feel better. I believe that bloggies don't say out my secrets, don't comment and keeps quiet whenever i comment on anything. That might be the best, well, for now only.

Guess what! It's xm who wanted me t blog, and i don't know i somehow feel it will be a great idea, though i think that blogging is kinda stupid and a waste of time in the past. Now, nehh..
Thanks for the suggestions hehe.

Well i don't know what to start with, but i bet 80% of this blog, i would be talking about him.
AWEEESOME (Y) -sarcastic.-
One more week, and i'm knowing you for 3 months already.
So short yet so long.
Many things happened.
It will be a never ending story if i typed it all out, but i guess i'm suppose to do that since i'm starting this blog ^^.

3months ago, we met.
Then, we fell for each other.
Then, we were together.
Then, things started to change.
Then, we decided to go separate ways, though we didnt,
Then, you told me you wanted to be single.
Then, you said you till love me.
I believe ur words.
However, u were busy flirting with other girls, and u used to tell me that you don't like girls who flirt. Look at what your're doing now.
You tell me too many things, too many lies that even now my mind is wavering.
I, wanted to believe you.
But u said u can't give me anything, u can't be thr whn i need you.
It's fine with me, i can wait.
However, you wanted me to forget you.
& ur're being cold towards me.
more and more cold.
that i'm freezing.
I hope it's just an act, but i don't want to lie to myself anymore. Since it's what u want, even if it's an act, i'll jus get along.

''Until now , i realise, we're jus mare online friends. Even my other online friends are better than you, so it should be easy for me t forget you. However it's just so difficult. I am confused myself too. You are changing, indeed. I'm totally speechless and now we have nth in common to say. Maybe its better if we go separate ways. But, i still don't get it, you said you still love me and i don't wanna give up that tiny piece of hope cause of that. You made me so paranoid that i'm starting t change too. Do you know that? I doubt so. You made me feel e ups and downs. Sometimes you just made me happy, sometimes angry and sad and tired and all mixed feelings started t come out. I know ur're stress, but who isn't?''

This is written in my phone's memo. There's more to come. When im feeling down or what i would jolt down what events had happen.

''I guessed, it's time for some actions. I don't know how limit is my patience going on. Look, are we going t be 'friends forever' that doesn't meet, have nth in common and might jus leave the country anytime? Please, this is too insane.''

Last quote of the day. Right, seriously i don't feel any better. It reminds me of the past only. But i guess this stops my complaining and rants to other people. :)
If smth happen again, i will continue at night.
Bye.